11.20 pm.... on third cup of coffee since dinner, which consisted of a microwave burrito and some snickers icecream. haven't had a full night's rest in a few days... don't remember when i changed clothes.
8 more pages of a schopenhauer critique to finish writing tonight
60pages of hegel to read tonight
an 8am dissertation defense (thank god not mine)
a 9am lecture i'm giving on the early aphoristic works of webern
a noon 3 hour roundtable on post-kantian aesthetics
3.30pm meeting w/ advisor
then teaching private lessons straight until 9pm....
meanwhile, all i seem to do is aquire parts for the car without actually assembling any damn thing together!!! haven't done any serious work on the car in 2 weeks!!
ARRRRRRRGHGHGHGHGHGHG!!!!!
someday, i will teach at a small liberal arts college in a picturesque setting, with adoring young coed students, plenty of "research time" to wrench cars, and tenure so solid they'll have no choice but to pay off my lawsuits.
meanwhile, i will pour another cup of coffee.
sorry, had to publicly vent.
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