it's almost over Options

[Queenie]

At least, I'm pretty sure it is.

My car won't pass smog.

It appears to have a blown head gasket.

Not to mention it still needs a shitload of engine work that I really don't feel like paying for or dealing with.

I have not made a final decision, but I've already started looking for a bug. I'm about 98% sure that cutting my losses and getting out now is the right thing to do. I can't afford to keep fixing the 914. As much as I love driving it, it's killing me to try to keep it on the road.

*sigh*

I so wanted this car to be a good thing.

[Queenie]

Mark is a prince among men, but I already knew that.

If you really want to look at it and give me an estimate, I'll bring it in. But I just don't think it's at all realistic for me to keep this car. I'm not down on 914s, I'm down on this car - I bought a bad year, and that's my tough luck to deal with now. I don't think it's going to smog without a major overhaul, and I just can't ask you & John to take that on as a charity case. I can pay, it just means going further into debt. And I don't think that this is the right car for me to be going into debt over. Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know. All I know is that I'm tired, and contemplating another couple grand in engine work makes me want to cry.

Drew - I know that all cars require maintenance and that maintenance takes money. And I am willing to make a commitment to that in order to drive the kind of cars that I love. It's not that I'm not willing to step up to the plate; the problem is that this car is not the right car for me to step up to the plate for. I've spent as much on repairs in two years as it cost me to buy the damn thing. At other times in my life that was ok, but right now it's not. I have to scale back, and driving a VW instead of a Porsche is the sensible thing to do. Trying to make this one be the one is probably not going to work. It needs more than I can give it, and it should belong to someone who can do right by it. They should be preserved, not driven into the ground.

I don't know, you guys. I just don't know.

But I really appreciate the support and the feedback.